My four walls

Today I feel comfort again
with my four walls
Will stop wanting something I don't have

Walls... dont make me feel so hot in the daylight
dont make me feel so cold in the late night
Please accompany me in whatever I do, everyday

Lately, I wish something too much
when I desperately feel lonely
but then I know, wishing too much only will hurt me more

For all friends
Even not always keep in touch
but knowing that u still remember me here
make me feel so happy

Thanks a lot for everything
I won't ask more
Only when you need a friend and u find nobody
remember me.. I will accompany you whenever u need it
I will give you my care if you want it

Now... I think everyone still feel good,
No need me beside..
so walls.. please be with me, I will share stories with u
I know... u always hear me :)
We have been together for more than 3 years
heard me when I told u happy stories and sad stories
Know what I feel always, laugh or cry
My four walls...

The party is OVER

My best day this year already end... the party is over
I had met some old friend... Its feel so great
Some friend who already separate by time and distance and finding the fate to meet again
Nice to meet u girls..
Also met a friend that I never dare to wish could meet again.
While distance so far...

I had a dream before.. after meeting we'll close as before. I will have opportunity to share my story of life like before. Not only when we met face to face but after that when the connection is limited only by virtual world.
But maybe I wish too much......

Rather than it will hurt me a lot so I decide to think my party is over....
I wont ask anything again that might made me in pain. So just let it only become a sweet memory, could talk and laugh like before... We never know when we could meet again, month, a years, 2 years, 10 years or maybe never. Even I tried to send message to keep in touch.. but seem it will be hard to have close in touch words.. will be back to just hi and how r u... but I think its still ok if u could sent it once a week. But sure.. i dont hope to much...

I believe life is full of secrets. Sometimes we try to tell the truth about your feeling to friends, they touch with your words but cant do nothing. We must accept every thing that happen in our life rather than try to against them. So the first thing we must realize every time u got such a big gift of happiness...u wont have it for every time. It must be a turn to get your bitterness. because life always like that.

Thanks a lot my friends for your wonderful time u shared with me.. I must awake now and back to reality my small world that have walls as border, and silence surround. Yeah my party is OVER.

So Stupid

I feel so stupid..
Black out..
did something without consideration
I knew its my own mistakes
so stupid....
If other heard will be laugh loudly

I never ever be like this..
just wondering why I was so stupid
I knew cant feel regret it
But God I still think again why I am so stupiddd

Everything gonna be OK

I walk a few steps alone
I make my self try to solve my own problem
without friends for share

Its hard in the beginning,
when I got many support in my past
and now I realized no one beside
no one I could ask for help

Hiding my tears on pillow
sink my problem in the deep water
Only hugging the wind which always touch my skin gentle

I am all alone now
without no one who care about
but Im sure everything gonna be OK
the pain, the tears won't kill me
I am ready to move

Anytime You Need A Friend

Anytime u need a friend I will be here...
So don't you fear even you miles away
I'm by your side, so you don't ever be lonely,


Thats all what I want to say to you. I know you will say the same to me. Even we live so far, you are untouchable, but sure this heart, this mind belong to you my friend. You will never know how much I care about you. You will never know, I wish I could wipe your tears and put half for me, so it will make u feel lighter. Or sometime I wish I could replace your place when I know you are so desperate.

When you are in tears, it bring me tears too. What I feel too u exactly the true. Its not a drama, that want to make you sure that I am with you. But its real. It happen because your kind heart, make me believe caring, supporting and respect are part of friendship. And you already prove it. You always give your hand whenever I need it so I won't slip, you give me your heart so I always feel I am not alone.

So .... as I feel, remember that Im always here whenever you need a friend. Just imagine I will stand by your side for hear, for hold your hand. Even I cant be there for real, I wish I could but my heart, my mind will never far from you.