#Deardaughter teruntukmu cinta...

#deardaughter surat ini mama tulis untukmu ananda Fadia Izza Nabila

Mama bahagia sekali mengetahui mama hamil kamu, setelah 1 tahun 7 bulan bolak balik ke dokter karena polycyst, membuat mama susah hamil. Kehamilan yang cukup sulit secara mental untuk mama, karena mama pernah gagal hamil 2x dan papamu mengultimatum mama untuk keluar kerja, padahal kantor mama hanya 10 menit dari rumah dan gajinya pun lumayan besar, tapi masalahnya mama harus naik turun tangga. Memasuki bulan ke 3 mama benar2 berhenti kerja walaupun ditentang keras oleh uti dan akungmu, itu membuat mama jadi merasa sunyi sendiri :( tapi lama-lama mama berusaha ikhlas sambil membayangkan kehadiranmu segera.

Engkau lahir sebulan lebih cepat dari waktu yg diperirakan, untung pula jakarta belum semacet sekarang, karena kamu bisa2 lahir ditaksi, krn mama menunggu papamu pulang dan benar 10 menit setelah tiba di rumah sakit tangismu terdengar mengisi ruangan. Bulan-bulan pertama ternyata ada masalah dengan pencernaanmu, BABmu keras dan menjadikanmu kholik. Ini yang heboh, kalau kamu kolik di waktu maghrib, tetangga kita di Kemayoran berdatangan, dikira kerasukan :(. Pernah malah ada yang membawa dukun disemprotnya kamu pake air garam, setelah itu mbah dukun menyebar garam diseluruh ruangan. Hadeuuhhh 

#Dearson my smile and my hope

Dear my son Hani, I hope this blogspot will last forever so you can read and understand this mail later. You need to learn bahasa Indonesia as you are Indonesian :)

Anakku Naufal Hani Dzakwan, tak terasa sudah 9 tahun lebih engkau mewarnai hidup kami. Awalnya mama begitu syok saat hamil kamu karena kakakmu baru berusia 1 tahun 2 bulan dan rasanya masih repot sebagai orang tua baru. Masa kehamilanmu ayahmu justru ditugaskan ke benua lain, yang membuat mama harus mandiri dari A-Z. Beberapa kali mama nyaris pingsan di angkot saat berangkat kerja karena bawaan bayi, dan begitu banyak cobaan yg dihadapi keluarga besar papamu membuat morat maritnya kehidupan keluarga kita. Dan karenanyalah engkau diberi nama Hani yang artinya "bahagia".

Love?? care or hurt?

Read Lyla post about "cinta dan sakit hati" I remembered some story about my friends. They told me about how love can hurt them a lot, and from that I knew what it can happen.
Love is a nature feeling, we can't push them to come anytime we want. Even when we meet a handsome or a beautiful one but if love not come,there will be nothing happen. But even we meet just ordinary person, your heart feeling warm inside and get the same chemistry... you are falling in LOVE. The problem will come how to make that love will long lasting

One of a reason why so many relationship fail and why its look great only in the beginning. In the beginning, there are so many caring message, call, smile you will send to your love one. Everyday you will open your mail send her/him a long mail, a sweet mail. Or send SMS just to know hows everything, make a call coz u miss to hear his/her voice.

But what happen after that, after you know he/she have the same feeling, you feel no need to give so much care like before. No intensive mail, sms or calling. Before you spent one-two hours to contact her/him but later 5 -10 minutes still too long for you. Sometimes you don't drop any message, and when your love one ask about that you will told her/him, "Please understand me, I am so busy nowadays, you know about this economic recession. I am under pressure, cant talk with u" Do you know your words can HURT his/her feeling a lot.

Oh Guys what you think, if he or she don't mean to ask so many time from you. As you both are already grown, and know what happen with this world recently, no need to make it as a reason not to contact. Just in case if you have no time...You only need 5 sentence to send to her/him, to prove you are still CARE, example
"Hi, how are u today?
"hope everything is ok with you."
"sorry I am a little bit busy, I'll try to say hi if I have time"
"remember you always be my best, or remember i always miss u"
"take care a lot"


Is that simple? 3 minutes only to send this mail to show that you care. Don't break his/her heart. Just Imagine if she or he tired and then sent this message "hey, how are you today, not hear from you for a long time, busy? Ok I wont bother you anymore. Good luck. Wish you have your happiness always">>> that's mean she or he said goodbye forever to you. You will lose everything after that. IF YOU STILL LOVE HER/HIM give a little care... Because when you said you love someone you must CARE your one not HURT his/her feeling. If you don't, just prepare your heart to lose your love forever.

dedicated for my friends who start to build new relationship and friends who failed with their relationship, just take A CARE as a lesson.. hope everything will be ok.

Prahara Cinta... I can't love you anymore...

What must I do, if i lose my feeling towards you?
If I feel I can't stand by you anymore....
Love is gone, nothing left
My heart not beating, only heartache

Suatu siang seorang teman tiba2 menyapa di YMku
Teman : Lina, I feel bad.
Aku : Why
Teman : My wife committed suicide yesterday. she try to cut herself with 3 knife. Blood everywhere
Aku : What??? *kaget* Did you bring her to hospital?
teman : Yes, alhamdulillah she was alright. If something happened to her, i will be jailed. We only have a little fight and she already did the foolish thing.


Terpikir dibenakku "woman mind always different with man mind". Laki2 terlalu berpikir sederhana, sedangkan perempuan suka bermain dengan perasaan dan kait mengait yang akhirnya terkadang jadi rumit. Tak bisanya rasa hati yang sejalan membuat akhirnya menjadi keributan yang tak terelakkan.

Kesibukan yang menyita, Keengganan untuk berbagi dan berkomunikasi,pikiran yang terlalu tercurah pada anak-anak membuat rasa cinta yang dulu kuat menjadi terburai. Sehingga saat perelisihan terjadi membuat akhirnya kita mengatakan "AKU SUDAH LELAH.... !!! I'M GIVE UP...."
OH NO.... Don't Ever Say That, Hidup memang tak selalu indah. Hanya cerita dalam dongeng saja yang indah. Do you ever think, if you give up, all the problem will be gone? The answer "NO, You will have another problem in your life. Believe me."

Jadi selelah apapun, sesakit apapun, cobalah bertahan dan mencari obatnya. Saat sedih dan sakit, menangislah, mengadulah ke Allah SWT sang pemberi hidup. Tapi tak cukup hanya itu dan hanya berdiam diri dan berharap keajaiban itu datang. Mencari bantuan dari seorang yang benar2 bisa dipercaya mungkin bisa meringankan. Percayalah, mahligai pernikahan adalah suatu yang patut kita perjuangkan. Karena kita telah memilih pasangan kita. Walaupun mungkin terbersit di benak "Did I marry the right person?" cause the answer "there are no right person with you, But you must make the person you choose are right"

Sekali lagi aku tidak akan menjudge jalan yang teman2ku pilih, tapi apapun itu pasti harus terpikir dengan baik, sehingga tidak ada sesal kemudian. Kedua belah pihak harus saling membantu untuk berjuang melewati segala aral lintang. Percayalah... ada waktunya "BADAI PASTI BERLALU....."

(didedikasikan buat teman yang istrinya sdg mengalami goncangan, dan dua temanku yg sedang mengahadapi gugatan... semoga semuanya berakhir dengan baik)