Could Time help me?

Could time explain this?
Why I couldn't throw this feeling
The sorrow still shadow my life
why I can't throw the hope that weren't be mine

Could time make me understand?
That life hide many mystery
found some precious thing
but then I must lost it and broke this heart in to pieces


Could time make me forget?
When I believe something
But then I realize thats all is absurd
I was flying too high, and make it hurt when it bump to the earth

Could time heal my pain?
When no one could help me out of it
when no one care about it
And this pain become one with my breathe

What time could do for me?
Day by day left, months changes, another year come
This memory still here and made a pain when I try to move on
When I couldn't stop hoping something that never be mine
Maybe......
The time could help me...
To make me stronger to handle this pain day by day
To make me understand, happiness and sadness are a bundle
and make me learn, an offer even with smile and kindness could be end on disappointment
and the biggest thing....too much hope will kill me

Learn to walk alone

Remembering time to time in our life, when we were child, we always feel safe with our parents. Both of them give us love, even sometimes on the way that we couldn't understand. At that time, we thought why our parent were so hard to understand. But when we grew older,finally we understand why them treated us so hard.

Time to go for college, almost all of us it was the first time lived so far from family. We tried to make a new family with friends, roommate, or who lived in the next door. We learn to be responsible for each other, whenever one of us met difficulties or got sick, we will become parents for them, vice versa. I always thing that friends whom I closed with on college are part of my family until now. Coz without them I couldn't pass my day happily.


Everything was change when we start it to work. Especially who always decide to move from one place to another place to work. When our colleague not only on the same age, sometimes we difficult to place us in the right way. But when we have same interest, it will be easy to make an conversation. Nothing difficult enough, when we meet everyday and could understand the way they think. Even not as close as college friend, but at least we still feel their caring.

It's not easy for me to make friendship. I always make a distance when I feel I couldn't bare when walk with them. For example : they are too diligent or too rich. Idiot thinking, isn't it, judging before try. But I am also the person who couldn't live without friend. I always need their energy to complete my life and life happily. Whenever I am feel lonely sometimes i just did a bad thing, thats why I always need them, for learn, share or guide me as well. Thats why I also prefer to talk with friends who easy going, not easy to get mad but easy to forgive.

Lucky me along my day i always find a good friend for me,with them I never feel lonely. But as we grew older and older, so many things occupied our mind, many responsibility of live, we only have limited time for sharing. Its quite difficult for me, when I lived so far from my best friend, I couldn't meet them to see their smile, or warm hug or just a quick chit chat. Contact them mean must open computer waiting them online and not busy, really afraid to bother even sometime I missed them too much.

So, from now on, I'd rather to learn how to walk alone, try to solve my problem with my own, try to find a way to cheer up my day even without other help, try to accept but I won't talk to anybody during days, accepting the silent surrounding. Its quite difficult shifting everything and accept this, Sometimes make me feel so lonely and so sad. But I choose to learn walking alone, and I will think it's A GIFT if on one of my days I could feel the warmest of my friendship. As we know... GIFT won't ever come daily, and I already thanks to them come to my life as A PRECIOUS GIFT.

Now I am so good,just really like Miley Cyrus song "the climb"

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Yap Just KEEP GOING by My OWN

I never forget...

special to all my best friends

My days were changed
slightly happy and more colorful
because you are my friends

I never forget the way you smile
I never forget your face when you upset
I never forget when you change your mood

Especially how you treat me
Stay beside when I need someone to share
the way you comfort me when I feel bad
Support me when I feel weak
And hold my hand when I feel lost

Even we are far away and cant meet face to face
But through your words I still can feel that you care
Here.. deep inside in my heart
I keep you and bring you wherever I go

Nothing I could give you
Just a pray, n wish I will always be there for you if you need me too
we will never stop to support each other
the way to show that we care
coz I couldn't hold your hand in real


thank u for all that you do friends... i really appreciate it

Without words the story will be end

Sometimes people thinks that other were mind reader. Knowing what they want even left unspoken, by trust, by reading gesture,or other thing except words. They never realized that when someone looks like reading their mind, they only guess. And their guess sometimes could be right but it could be wrong.

Just imagine, you left in a room with a person. Just sit together without words. The person look at you but say nothing, just smile. You will guess that the person don't like you bother her and just want to be polite with you and give you smile. But it could be wrong, maybe the person just wait you begin a conversation, because she were afraid to begin.

Thats always happen in our life, people just waiting other speak and they will follow, its hard for someone to volunteer make a nice conversation. They are afraid to have feeling rejected by others when others dont give them the proper answer.So they choose to keep quiet for their own sake. But won't you ever think, that without word will never be next episode? You cant have a good friend without saying anything.You wont know someone love you if both of you just waiting.You will never know, that you and your friend still thinking each other without words sent?

Words are important things in our life. Speak or write it clearly to show up your feeling. Keeping in your heart and thinking that other will understand us it will be impossible things. Without words the story will be end. Without words you will loose your chance to get a long with other person. And when you realized this, it was too late. So try .... sending words rather than keep quiet and hope other read your mind

Breakaway

Inspired by Kelly Clarkson song Breakaway,


...
Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I'd pray
I could break away

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly.
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky.
Make a wish, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun.....



When life was so hard for us, when no one could we ask for help, we need to keep fight by our self. With pieces of our confidence that still left, with a little hope in our heart. Even we feel alone and lonely, sometimes feel desperate, but believe there will be a way to reach our happiness, someday, somewhere.

I remembered when I was young, I have a dream, sometimes it looks impossible, sometimes I felt broken heart also, but then finally I find the way to continue my step, even in lots of tears and many difficulties. That time I wrap all the bitterness in my smile and never give up to fight. I also wrote a poem about bird that have hurt in its wings but still try to fly.

Now, when we growing older, some problem become harder to solve. We take care many hearts and sometimes must forget our feeling. And its more difficult to find someone we can share. But it doesn't mean our day will always cloudy. When no one can help us, just make our self cool down whenever we meet a hard problem, make the proper decision as good as we can. Not only good for others but also good for us. Sometimes we only think about other heart but never aware with our own need. It will throw us in the deepest hurt and unhappiness. So starting now we must BREAKAWAY this thinking. We deserve to be happy, and other must respect our need too. Will be great if we can find a win-win solution

Always hope this time we could breakaway our sorrow, we can find the wings to fly, to touch the sky even on the storm n rainy day